Posts Tagged ‘Ashlee Zlotnick’

Time to change the world

Hello strangers.

I know I have been distant at the moment, I have been so busy writing for everyone else that I have forgotten to write for me.

It has been a long few weeks and I have had to overcome a lot of different mountains let alone obstacles. I have learned a lot though and I would like to share my biggest lesson I have learned.

When did we forget how to be children? Good question wouldn’t you say? I feel that once you have become an adult or you get out of school, you forget to love the small things in life. You forget to ask questions and look at the world with awe. My family mocks me and often tells me that I am immature and this is so far from the truth. I am financially stable, I have a full time job, I own a business and I make money by writing articles for overseas people and yet they think I act like a child. Truth is, I do act like a child because it keeps me grounded.

Life is hard and life is unfair however, life can be fun as well. I work a full day and come home to play Disney songs or get up to mischief with my dad because life is too short to be serious all the time. There are more people on anxiety medication or reflux medication caused by stress that the thought is actually making me sick.

Go outside and play like you played when you were children. Make a mess and laugh about it instead of screaming like an idiot about how much it cost. If you do not want it to get dirty, don’t buy it. It really is that simple!

Appreciate the small things in life like a dragonfly floating above the water or how astonishing bubbles are. If you walk past a bubble and do not want to pop it, there is something seriously wrong with it.

Take it from me, become a child from an hour a day and you will see how much better your life will become. You will be more relaxed and become more grateful for what you have.

Namaste

 

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Time Restraints

By: Ashlee Zlotnick

As the strap gets wrapped
around my fragile neck,
my heart begins to race.
WAIT! I need one more sec…

The buckle gets fastened
and my neck begins to grow.
Losing air quickly I fear.
All I want to do is say no.

Tic toc tic toc.
The time slowly tics away.
Suffocation takes over!
I am defeated… I have no say.

Nothing is no longer free.
Time controls it all.
One hour coffee here and there.
Everything is restricted, I’ve hit a wall.

I am slowly suffocating with time restraints.
I can no longer be spontaneous.
That’s what happens when you grow up.
Watch out the window… is a sure miss.

Scrambled eggs… as thoughts

Hello all my gorgeous viewers and welcome to the amazing world called my brain…

Ok, so it is not that amazing but hey, I got your attention. Right time to get down to business… I finish my diploma in 2 weeks. I cannot really say that out loud because my household or close people don’t really seem to want to talk about it. They try to, they will bring up next year or what am I going to do to celebrate but no-one really seems to want to talk about the now. How am I feeling now, what am I going to do now? The answer… I have no idea.

Next: You know that allowing little green thing that pops into your life every once in awhile at the most annoying times? The time whereby you really do not need him. Yes we all know that hated feeling called jealousy. Not much to say really except for the fact that when you tend to feel insecure about something, the green monster shines brighter than the Nelson Mandela bridge. It is as if he has been practicing his whole life for this one moment… “Ok I am ready… To make life complicated and moments horrible and awkward” That is exactly what it feels like. And then loan-behold you are stuck in this moment trying not to hurt anyone’s feelings but the truth of the matter is, you are sick and tired of having to share what is yours. Barney isn’t always right… surely?

Ladies and gentleman my solution to all this… drown myself is work. Always fixes stuff for me. Just focus on something else. The art of distraction as they say… But truth of it all, you cannot keep running. Sometimes you need to face this green monster and allow your own inner monster to shine even brighter… So no more running or trying to hide…

I am finishing in 2 weeks and I am scared as hell however I have worked really hard the past 3 years and I deserve to be finished. I feel proud and like I have conquered this giant hill called college. Moving on to bigger and better things…

Hope you all have an amazing week filled with accomplishments and life changing thoughts.

Ash

xxx

The rose

By: Ashlee Zlotnick

Started off as a little seed
barely breaking through the earth.
As the time passes, stems begin to grow
and soon after permanent roots form.

Seasons change and buds connect.
The summer sun allows flowers to blossom.
Fragrances fill the crisp air
and colours broaden the garden spectrum.

The flower brings in positivety.
Sometimes even looks like it is judging.
It is there to be a home to animals
and a voice of reason for lost souls.

Winter comes and takes it away.
Everything is just sad and morbid
BUT you have a picture of your rose in your mind.
I wish it was forever…frozen in time.

Everyone has a breaking point

Good evening all you gorgeous viewers…

Time to get serious: Life is hard at the best of times. Work and studying and just everything in general. Makes life a complete challenge… a challenge we all believe that we don’t need at times. Sometimes it would just be nice if everything went smoothly and without issues but then we get hit with yet another curve ball… pressure

Too little pressure, you not motivated enough, too much pressure you tend to find your breaking point very fast. I found mine not so long ago… I have been pushed to my limit and at times, it feels like I have been pushed off the edge. I need to get good marks, be a good sister, be a good girlfriend, be a good friend.. be a good thing and that and the list just does not end… And then another curve ball comes me way… Sit back and accept.

Now for those of you who know me and my writing will know that I am a very patient person when it comes to people. Well people I like. Lately I have had to accept a lot. I finish this year, my brother finishes this year, I have lost yet another group of friends, I probably won’t be friends with many people from college, I have to start thinking about an adult future… That is a lot to accept, And then I get asked to sit back and accept being left out. Now I am a very stubborn, hardheaded person. Once you put an idea in my head, it takes a lot to remove it. Once I fight with someone over something, I will very seldom go towards the thing that makes me fight. Just feels like a bad vibe with bad energies around it. Doesn’t that makes sense? You fight over it so surely there is something negative around it… I hope you did not think that was the last curve ball cause now you see, you have to juggle. I want tricks, and flips and you are not allowed to drop a ball… Bingo… Breaking point

Handling one at a time is very easy. I can do it in my sleep. Juggling I am also good at. My life is balanced. I find time for everyone. Its my super power. But you see, problem comes in when I’m juggling and it feels like one ball is too heavy and my arms get sore and I miss the catch. I do tend to break… Smash a mirror enough times and it will shatter. That’s what has happened to me. I have shattered. I am no longer juggling because I am tired. I am tired of just accepting, I am tired of pressure and I am tired. Everyone has a breaking point. Everyone can ask for something, even if it is selfish… The juggler gets a chance too.

But I am the juggler, the fixer, the doer. So I will pick up all my balls, take a deep breath and juggle yet again…

Till next time

Ash

My inspiration

hi guys. I think it is time I write about this awesome and astonishing person who has impacted my life so much that I would not be the person I am without her.

As most of you know, I have had one school teacher that has inspired me so much that I write today because of him. Mr Maduna was my grade 9 English teacher and it was because of him,that I realized that I can write poetry and even a book. Now, I have so many people reading my work and commenting. You guys truly fill my heart with joy because of your comments. I am so thankful for the fact that you all take time out of your busy lives to read and comment on my work. And I have him to thank for that… Now on my next venture into life, I have a new lady who inspires me to be better at what I do and to reach for the stars…

I met this amazing lady 3 years ago. She was the only person that had the patience to sit with me endless amounts of hours and teach me how to paint the perfect nail in 3 strokes. Sounds strange I know but if it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t be where I am today.

She has been there for me ever since first year and I know that she will be there for me in the years to come.   She has saved me in so many instances that I cannot name them all. However, I can that she has gotten me through one of the hardest times in my life so far and I will forever be grateful to her. Anyone who has had the pleasure to cross paths with her would know how inspirational and loving she really is. She will spend endless hours with you until you get the work right or even just lend an ear to listen to.

When you look up at the sky and you see that quiet,shy little star in the sky, you tend to think to yourself that that star can make the most impact because it’s not all in your face. She is the exact same. I am very happy that I was blessed with meeting her and that she has stayed in my crazy but fun life.

thank you so much Miss.C. You are a true inspiration to me.

Love you stacks.

Ash

xxx

Mirror Image

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Hey guys,

Ever wonder how someone else sees you? Not in a physical way but in an emotional, psychological way? Do they see you for who you are? Someone they can use and abuse? Someone who can mean the entire world to them however act like they don’t care that much when they with other people?

Interesting question right?

I have always been a straight forward person. If I don’t like you, I won’t pretend I like you in front of other people. If I love you, I am going to love you so that everyone else knows what you mean to me. I am a mirror image. How I see you, I show you and other people. If you my entire world and oxygen, people know that and know that I will check up on you and talk to you even when I am not with you.

People change when they are around other people. You might have to be more professional, act like an adult and not a child but does that mean that you treat people differently and don’t do what you normally would if they weren’t around? Granted, the people you are with need your attention and running around and being in other places the whole time is wrong but your every day actions should not change and how you treat people shouldn’t change either.

Learn to be a mirror image and not a person who changes because of surroundings…

Love

Ash

It’s my birthday!

Good evening guys!

Poetsandall turns 5 today! How amazing is that! I have had this blog for 5 years now and I hope to have it for another 50 or more.

I would just like to thank my amazing viewers for sticking by me for all these years. I could not have done this without you guys and all your comments.

My writing Mentor saw a light inside me and he lit it. It is an eternal flame that will be burning forever and as long as I have my inspirations, muse, and you guys, I will continue to write till my heart’s content!

Thank you all once again!

Love

Ash

xxx

Trigger Point

By: Ashlee Zlotnick

I feel like a trigger point.
Hidden deep inside the muscle.
I’m larking around waiting…
waiting to be heard.

Everything around me is tense.
Everything is out of place and red.
Their voice is being heard
but I’m still waiting.

I’m slowly being covered up.
It’s like the roof and walls are closing in.
Now I’m even deeper down
and I don’t think I’m going to be heard.

My rage builds up
and I cause enough pain.
Enough to be healed
but finally heard

Simplicity

Good evening all you gorgeous people…

My post tonight is very basic and simple.Learn to love the simple things in life.

A friend and I were talking and she is so negative at the moment its raining on my positive parade and I do not like that. We need to remember that life happens! We get knocked down and we get picked up and once again we get knocked down. Guys, that is life. It is how the story goes BUT we need to start looking at things differently.

Rain comes as a shower or a storm. We don’t get to choose how it comes but we choose how we look at it. Either the storm has flooded us and we stuck inside. No way out because everything out there is flooded… or we look at it in a way that is positive. Rain waters our grass to make it greener in the long run.

They say shit hits the fan… You can take it as a bad thing and everything get messed or you look at it as redecorating. A change of scenery and colour…

Moral of my post is simple… Always look on the bright side of life. Don’t look at the bad as bad but as a lesson to help you grow and blossom into something more beautiful… A caterpillar gets crammed into a little nest or pod. Think its comfortable in there? I think its like being suffocated but it is worth it because it gets transformed into a gorgeous creature… a butterfly…

Fly with grace

Ash

xxx

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