Posts Tagged ‘colour’

Jealousy or does it go deeper than that?

Dear fellow viewers…

Life is hard and frankly it sucks! So many negative people and negative feelings and events, that it’s starting to make the world look grey and colourless.

I have always been the type of person to find the good. Try find the colour in every storm but lately it seems to get a lot harder every event. People seem to be losing their inner sunshine and that has become a real downer on the people like myself who try hard to be positive. Eventually it starts to drain you to the point whereby you stop seeing the colour and all you see is the grey and that is very scary for me.

See events happen and that can make you feel jealous. Like you don’t get the same attention or don’t get to see that person as often anymore. You have to sit and listen to everything they have to say even if it hurts you deep down inside but here is the trick… is it just jealousy or does it go deeper than that?

I have a constant need to feel loved. My down fall I guess. A lot has happened in my life and I need constant reminders that I am loved and that people need me and care for me. If people don’t need me, I can’t help and then a bit part of my soul and who I am does not get fed… Kind of like a plant that needs water to grow and survive… Because of this, I tend to feel threatened by people who seem to think they can take my place. People who think they deserve the same attention and affection that I worked years to get. That bugs me. That makes me see the grey and not the colour because I get discouraged.

Moral of my story: People have their own flaws. We have issues that run deeper than most people think and know and because of this, people might feel like its one emotion when it is actually deeper and more intense than that… Always remember that people feel the way they do for a reason. How we act and what we say affects people. So just be careful and maybe once in awhile, listen and take in what people say cause you never know what colour you could be taking away from them…

Ash

xxx

Goodbye 2014 hello 2015

Good evening all my gorgeous viewers… Miss me?

Tonight’s post is not something sad nor happy. It is a mere memory of me saying goodbye and letting go of what I do not need and cherishing what I have got…

Goodbyes first: I would like to say goodbye to my diploma as I am finally finished! no more studying for waxing or make-up. No more 10 hour exams. I am done with my Somotology diploma.How scary is that? I remember sitting outside massaging my mom’s best friend ten years ago telling her how much I would love to do this as a job one day. I am the type of person who will get what she wants and will stop at nothing until I get it. So i convinced my dad to come to the open day  with me. He did not want me to become a beauty school drop out but once he saw much work I would have to put in, he was more than happy to let me do it. Now here I am… At the finish line. This year was hard for me. Not only from a school point of view but from an emotional one as well. My family fell apart, my grandfather has not been well at all and I have had to say goodbye to people who have died and they meant a lot to me.

Looking back at the year, you would say that the year has been pretty dull,grey and gloomy.I have fought with my sister more times with year than I think I have in my entire life. I have been knocked down so many times that I am surprised I am still standing but I do prefer to look at the bright side. I for one love colour so here is my colour…

I have grown as a person so much this year. I have become who I have wanted to be for awhile and although there is always room for improvement, I am very happy with who and what I have become.

I would like to say hello to: specialising in a field whereby I can heal people with the power of touch. Next year my dream comes true and I cannot be happier. My boyfriend and I will be going out for a year next year, that is pretty big for me. My brother will be finishing school and starting his own career and following his own dreams. My Shmoobear will be in grade 10. She chose her subjects. Scary to think she is starting to work on her dreams for after school. My lil sis will be in second year… She is able to follow her dreams and produce a lot next year.

I look forward to seeing them grow and for me to grow with them. Looking at is from this angle… next year does not look too bad at all. Got a few things planned such an concerts, business ventures and hopefully an amazing trip to end off the year.

So goodbye 2014. You have taught me a lot and have shown me what it means to look at the real colours in life and in people.

Focus on the rainbow and not on the rain guys.

Love

Ash

xxx

My sunshine

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By: Ashlee Zlotnick

Behind the clouds
and rainy days,
I have sunshine
to colour in the greys.

They make me laugh
and make me smile.
They my antidote
to all the bad in the vile.

They not a secret
or a hidden treasure.
I’ll share my sunshine
with you with pleasure.

They my three siblings.
They make my world turn.
I love them with all my heart
and they help me to learn.

So I need to say thank you.
I need them to know I care.
If you mess with my sunshine…
HAHA… you wouldn’t dare

Why I write

why i write

By: Ashlee Zlotnick

I write to get my feelings out.
I write when I’m in doubt.
I write when I am bored
and I write when I’ve been cut by a sword.

I write to tell you how I feel.
I write because it is my soul’s main meal.
Truth is I never used to write
but my mentor pushed with all his might.

I write to make you guys think
and to turn your world into weird colours like pink.
Life issues, problems and joys
gets written about including boys.

I’m not forced to do this
juts like you not forced to call me miss.
This is my soul opening, showing you light.
Now you know why I write.

Typical Autumn day

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By: Ashlee Zlotnick

Blue sky’s.
Sun shining.
As the wind blows, leaves fall
and the birds lose a feather.
Children playing
in red, orange and brown.
A slight chill overtakes their body.
A hint of green here and there
and no-one is in the pool…
This is a typical autumn day.

We need a little…

By:Ashlee Zlotnick

No-one ever enjoys the pain
but to get a gorgeous rainbow,
we need a little rain.

No-one ever enjoys being sad
but to see all the good,
we need a little bad.

No-one ever likes to fight
but to see who is true,
we need a little grey before the bright.

No-one ever likes a negative zing
but to get clear vocal cords,
we need a little scream before we can sing.

No-one ever likes to be wrong
but to see who is right,
we need a little reason to sing our song.

No-one ever enjoys a scare
but to enjoy the ride,
we need a little push on the coaster because we only stare.

No-one ever enjoys a scar
but they your war wounds guys,
we need a little cut to realise we a star.

We all one

By: Ashlee Zlotnick

I am amazing.
I am astonishing.
I am talented.
I am slowly growing.

I can be angry.
I can be sad.
I can be silly.
I can be mad.

I could be black.
I could be white.
I could be green.
I could be bright.

I know I’m complex.
I know I’m controlled.
I know I’m a believer.
I know I’m from G-D’s mold.

We are all the same inside.
We are all different outside.
We are all unique and loved.
We are all needed in this world so please don’t hide.

One G-D.
One family.
One world.
One me.

We one of a kind.
We from the same mold.
We are part of this happy world-wide family.
We stand together and our love is what we will forever hold.