Posts Tagged ‘goodbye’

Goodbye 2014 hello 2015

Good evening all my gorgeous viewers… Miss me?

Tonight’s post is not something sad nor happy. It is a mere memory of me saying goodbye and letting go of what I do not need and cherishing what I have got…

Goodbyes first: I would like to say goodbye to my diploma as I am finally finished! no more studying for waxing or make-up. No more 10 hour exams. I am done with my Somotology diploma.How scary is that? I remember sitting outside massaging my mom’s best friend ten years ago telling her how much I would love to do this as a job one day. I am the type of person who will get what she wants and will stop at nothing until I get it. So i convinced my dad to come to the open day  with me. He did not want me to become a beauty school drop out but once he saw much work I would have to put in, he was more than happy to let me do it. Now here I am… At the finish line. This year was hard for me. Not only from a school point of view but from an emotional one as well. My family fell apart, my grandfather has not been well at all and I have had to say goodbye to people who have died and they meant a lot to me.

Looking back at the year, you would say that the year has been pretty dull,grey and gloomy.I have fought with my sister more times with year than I think I have in my entire life. I have been knocked down so many times that I am surprised I am still standing but I do prefer to look at the bright side. I for one love colour so here is my colour…

I have grown as a person so much this year. I have become who I have wanted to be for awhile and although there is always room for improvement, I am very happy with who and what I have become.

I would like to say hello to: specialising in a field whereby I can heal people with the power of touch. Next year my dream comes true and I cannot be happier. My boyfriend and I will be going out for a year next year, that is pretty big for me. My brother will be finishing school and starting his own career and following his own dreams. My Shmoobear will be in grade 10. She chose her subjects. Scary to think she is starting to work on her dreams for after school. My lil sis will be in second year… She is able to follow her dreams and produce a lot next year.

I look forward to seeing them grow and for me to grow with them. Looking at is from this angle… next year does not look too bad at all. Got a few things planned such an concerts, business ventures and hopefully an amazing trip to end off the year.

So goodbye 2014. You have taught me a lot and have shown me what it means to look at the real colours in life and in people.

Focus on the rainbow and not on the rain guys.

Love

Ash

xxx

Road trip

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By: Ashlee Zlotnick

A couple of miles down the road
I stop to take a look…
I suddenly begin to realise
what chapters are removed and added to my book.

12 years went by fast
but was fun the say the least.
Only difference is now
I’m the only one left at this feast.

I’m alone in this corner now.
Not one of you stood by me.
All that’s left is a memory
or two… maybe three.

But then I open my eyes
and begin to really see.
Not one of you were really there…
at least not for me.

That’s ok I guess.
You weren’t meant to be on my trip.
I’m going uphill now!
I hope you all enjoy your downhill dip

Souls

By:Ashlee Zlotnick

As the sun shone over the building, the hall got very cold. A gush of wind came and over took our souls as the wooden doors opened. Colder than ice the noisy metal carried the wooden box to another hall. Slowly everyone followed…

Dead silence but a thousand thoughts filled the room. Then the sound of the shirts tearing overwhelmed the silence. They began to move again. Slowly everyone followed…

The sun blinded our tears as people were called up to accompany the box to the final destination. Sun shining, gorgeous blue sky but the trees were dead and the walk was very long and torturous. Everywhere you look there stones and symbols of love and devotion. Devastation yet so peaceful. Finally we arrived at the site and the family followed the box until it reached the whole. Slowly everyone followed…

Outcries of sadness and shock echoed in this open plan place as prayers were said to send the loved one on and then it hit. The hollowing sound that makes your stomach drop and is the slap in the face by reality that it is time to say goodbye. The sand hits the coffin… 1…2…3…Next and slowly everyone followed…

Mary Hopkins-Those were the days

Song Friday!!!!!

Hey guys. So for this week, our song Friday is a song that I sang at my grade 7 play in 2007. This song fits this week perfectly because today I get my Matric results and it is finally time to say goodbye to my school and hello to my new one… When you in school, you really do not think that you will finish and here I am. 12 years of my life are over and as amazing as it feels to be able to follow my dreams, it is also sad to leave people and the location behind. So here it is, those were the days

lyrics: [ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/those-were-the-days-lyrics-mary-hopkins.html

Once upon a time there was a tavern Where we used to raise a glass or two Remember how we laughed away the hours And dreamed of all the great things we would do
Those were the days my friend We thought they’d never end We’d sing and dance forever and a day We’d live the life we choose We’d fight and never lose For we were young and sure to have our way. La la la la… Those were the days, oh yes those were the days
Then the busy years went rushing by us We lost our starry notions on the way If by chance I’d see you in the tavern We’d smile at one another and we’d say
Those were the days my friend We thought they’d never end We’d sing and dance forever and a day We’d live the life we choose We’d fight and never lose For we were young and sure to have our way. La la la la… Those were the days, oh yes those were the days
] Just tonight I stood before the tavern Nothing seemed the way it used to be In the glass I saw a strange reflection Was that lonely woman really me
Those were the days my friend We thought they’d never end We’d sing and dance forever and a day We’d live the life we choose We’d fight and never lose For we were young and sure to have our way. La la la la… Those were the days, oh yes those were the days
Through the door there came familiar laughter I saw your face and heard you call my name Oh my friend we’re older but no wiser For in our hearts the dreams are still the same
Those were the days my friend We thought they’d never end We’d sing and dance forever and a day We’d live the life we choose We’d fight and never lose For we were young and sure to have our way. La la la la… Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

MATRIC!!!!!

Hey guys

I think it is fair to say that matric has to be one of the biggest roller coasters out there. I mean think about it…. First it takes away your social life. then your friends because they leave to go overseas and before you know it, the year is over! On the up side, matric has shown me who I have become. It has allowed me to grow as a person and I feel like I have learnt more about myself in the past year than I have in a very long time.

It has taught me that I can stand on my own and I can over come a lot in life if I think about it logically and be a ‘clever bitch’ It has shown me that I am always going to find people who want to hurt me and bring me down but I need to hold my head up high and be proud of who and what I am. I have come to understand that with hard work and passion, I can achieve anything I want to in life. I have come to realise that I can have fun and dance in the rain. Sometimes you just have to let go and live in the moment…. After 2 years of hard work( I did not work in grade 10) I won an academic award and as award for First Aid and my service to human kind. When I was called up my heart sank and I did not believe it was my name they were calling out which brings me to my next point… After I got my award the first person I told was my lil sis. She is my rock, my torch, my everything and if it was not for her, I would be the person I am today. School brought her to me and I will always be grateful to my school for allowing me to meet my muse.

Matric is hard make no mistake and it is a year I will never forget… It has its highs such as my matric jersey, being heads of the school, my matric dance and creating ever lasting bonds. It also has its lows, hard work, pressure, pimples, stress and goodbyes…

Ash

xxx

 

Goodbye 2011

Good afternoon all my lovely viewers:)

It is that time of year again. Christmas bonuses are being given out, lots of shopping is being done, families are working together to get the house decorated and all lit up. Most importantly, it is time for families to get together and spend time as a family. My favourite aspect of December is: going away as a family. See I am Jewish so I do not celebrate Christmas but I feel that it is a holiday that really does bring light into the world!!!

I am going away for awhile so I will not be able to post until 2012… Have a Merry Christmas everyone and for us Jews, have a great Channukah xxx

Last message for this year: this time of year is designed to bring families together and is the perfect time for second chances. Hold on to your loved ones and tell them how much they mean to you whilst you sit around the tree and kiss then when the clock strikes 12 on news year because you never know if that is going to be the last time you can spend new years with them…

Have a great one

Signing out

Ash

xxx

 

A Tribute to Ryan

Feeling Lost

My friend died nearly a month ago and to be honest I don’t think I have dealt with it yet. It is like I have placed it in a box and left it in a deep,dark hole where I never want to go again but I have to as I am writing a speech for his memorial which is on Monday.

I am not the type of person who writes like this. I normally write a poem or a story but for some reason I can’t write a poem because when I write poems it makes the things in my life seem more real and I learn to come to terms with it but this is something I SHOULD NOT have to build a bridge and get over and learn to move on.

I am 16 and my 18-year-old friend was run over by a speeding car and his poor sister had to sit and watch this all happen. When I was told Ryan died it was as if my heart sank into the ground and my body became weak and like jelly. I went into shock right away and burst into tears.

I had to watch his family breakdown as they places his body into the ground. Those first few shovels of sand hitting the coffin, I will never forget. Each shovel got louder and louder and my body could not take it. This was the worst day of my life and now it is time I come to terms with it.

I know life goes on and that where ever he is, he is in a better place but what about me? What about his Family? That day his mother had to watch her baby boy get covered with sand and the only thing telling us he is there is a simle number next to the grave.

I don’t believe that it will get easier and that the pain will go away, I believe that we learn to live with what has happened and that it is ok for us to laugh again and act like nothing is wrong. This doe not mean that I have forgotten him, it is the opposite. Ryan loved to laugh and make other people laugh.

so every time I laugh or smile I am going to think of him and I am going to do it for him as well. He will forever live on in my heart and in his families and friends heart’s as well.

Goodbye Beloved Friend

By: Ashlee Zlotnick

With shaking hands and a trembling heart.

I phoned to see if what I heard was true.

Are we from now on going to be apart?

I never thought this would be the death of you.

To think that the last thing you saw was an oncoming car.

Your poor sister had to watch you whilst you fall.

You never got the chance to call your wife ma.

To think that it all happened while you were at a mall.

You were only 18 years old.

You never got to finish school.

Your hands always so cold.

But your personality, oh so cool.

… continue reading this entry.