Posts Tagged ‘help’

Now what

Have you guys ever been hit with a rock so big that you have no idea how you feel? You know that feeling when you run into the garage door, fall on the floor and you start to laugh before you cry because your body is just so numb? Or how about when you are just so angry you don’t care? Welcome to my world…

I have been faced with one of my biggest relationship challenges I think I have ever been faced. There are just so many people to consider that I have got no idea how to move forward from here. And my best part, when I think I am ready to move on… The rock comes back to hit me with even more force.

My puzzle that used to be my life, a perfect picture with a few spaces between them has now turned into a mess on the floor and I want to just walk away. But I can’t… why… because I am not the only one to consider. There are other people being effected by this rock. People who used to love this rock but right now, all I see is the mold.

I guess once you hurt me to a point, I break. I am strong but right now I am far from it. I am injured and torn and just in pieces and I am not sure what my glue is… For those of you know read my work often will know about my broken plate idea. (Go look in my theories section for the broken plate) So I do not think that right now there is a way to fix my plate right now and this is scaring me a lot.

So now what…


Time to smell the roses

Hey guys

So I am sitting on my bed and crying. Nothing is wrong but I am listening to a CD I haven’t listened to in a very long time. 2 years to be exact… This was mine and Ryan’s favourite CD and band. Simple Plan was like our jam and now here I am listening to it without him. I feel like I am cheating or something but now my brain is working and it is time for everyone to wake up and smell the roses!

See Ryan died and now I have not enjoyed the lyrics of this amazing band in 2 years. That is just wrong on so many levels. This CD got me through a lot in the past and it can still do the same today. Right so it is now time for us all to learn a lesson. Everything in life happens for a reason. We have people come in and out of our lives for reasons. Relationships mould into something unique for a reason. Every relationship is different and they all have that unique aspect to them in order for you to grow as a person and as friends, siblings, spouses etc. I am who I am because I need to influence, help, support people in such a way that they understand and feel better. I am a fixer and when I can’t fix, I break or don’t sleep until I can fix. Maybe that is my purpose in life… To be there for people and make them believe in themselves and run to me when they need help. I am ok with this because its who I have become and I love who I am! Every person in my life has helped turn me into the girl I am right now and I thank them all because if it wasn’t for them, I would not be who I am. For example, I write because of my old English teacher who taught me to believe in my writing. I was able to help people medically because of Timor( there is your shout out Timmy) My aunt and uncle made me believe in my photography… these are just some examples.

Now time for the lesson… you woke up this morning for a reason. You gave that person a hug for a reason. You said hello to that guy so that one day he could become your husband. Guys there is so much negativity in this world at the moment that we have all lost sight of what really matters and that is our love and acceptance of people. People are the way that they are for a reason and if you can’t accept that then that is you problem not theirs. Don’t hate someone because of who they love or what they look like. If they happy and are a good person, that is all that matters. If we were all the same then we would not have doctors, nurses, artists, different music genres or movies. Can you imagine no horror movies or comedy… only Romance because why would we need variety if there was only one type of person…

Embrace people’s differences and be glad and proud of who you are because your uniqueness helps someone out and helps them grow and learn


I need your help to pray for Ronel Carol Marais

Good evening all my beautiful viewers:)

I need your help… There is an amazing young girl who has unfortunately been hit by cancer more than once and it has returned yet again and this time it is out for the kill but you guys can help me stop that or at least try to.

I am a firm believer in G-D and no matter who your G-D is, he or she will listen to you when you call. I need you all to please pray for this girl to get better. She has a family, a life and it is too soon for her to say goodbye.

For those of you who need a little bit of help in believing, here is a true story for you:  not so long ago a girl in my community was giving a misfortune and landed up in a coma. Her family and friends were told that she would never wake up and that there was no hope. We all prayed for her and stayed positive. To cut a long story short she woke up and is as well as ever. She is a full-time mom and is proud of it.

The power of prayer is astonishing and truly magical so please will you all take 2 minutes out of your day to help a young girl in need. Her name is Ronel Carol Marais

Please pray for her

Thank you all so much and if you have any other names, I would love to put it up and help others in need. Just email me